Wednesday, September 27, 2006

hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihn ko,.

kasi minsan hindi bagay tpos minsan naman alam mo yun
sobrang bababaw maski ako,. nacocornihan na

hay

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

gaano ba kahirap ang mundong ito?
alam mo ba kung gaano???
meron ngabang nakakaalam maski isa sa tin kung gaano?
hmm.,

kagabi habang nakasakay ako sa harapan ng jeep at naghhantay ng pasahero ang driver,. may napansin akong bata na nakaupo sa kanyang tuhod,.
tapos nakita ko na wla pla syang salawal,.
yung pwet nya shoot sa may butas ng kanal,.
yun, nakaupo sya at nagaantay,.
wla mang hirap na kung ano sa kanyang mata,.
nagaantay lang at nakaupo
wla mang pakialam kung may tumitingan ba sa kanya o wla,.
wla mang pakilam na nakaupo siya sa gitna ng lahat at naka hubo,.
basta
parang nakaupo lang tlaga,.

kung di man siguro inasar asar nung mamang nagtitinda ng sigarilyo't candy sa may tabi ng poste ay di ito magsasalita na kung ano mag papansin,.

ayun,.
lumabas din ang dumi,

naisip ko minsan kung gaano ako kahirap umiri para lumabas yung akin,. as in,.auh!!! ganoon kadali yung sa kanya,. pero naman yung pagkakaiba,. ako may banyo pa ako,. sya sa kanal na lamang,. sa kanal pa sa may gitna na pagkikita ng dalawang kalye,.tsk,.


is this dirt: http://www.earthtimes.org/articles/show/8858.html

Tuesday, September 19, 2006


i miss sims,..
i miss playing sims,.. ( boom,. you should have heard that like an angry foot stomping,. but unfortunately it was a book, you see i'm in the library,. as always)
i miss playing with my tortilos family. sure i've got lots of simulated characters but tortilos is the one that i like to play with.


tortilos is my obsession you see.

one time, as trish and i were going to the ab building this certain guy, who i have a crush, was walking out. it was trish's idea to follow him. so we did. he went to the coop pav, yup meron pa noon,. kaya first year pa lang noon. he bought a tortillos. a CHILI TORTILLOS. that's where the nickname came from.

"obvious naman kasi pag stripes," trish commented.

i've got a johnny depp who's a bachelor, in my sims community, a samantha evagelista (belat nyo), friends cast friends with the greatest fan of friends (moi of course!), living star friends with their own lives: jen aniston, matthew perry, etc, i even have a brad pitt, anjelina jolie and their adopted family, but of course since its my world,. they ha e each other and brad is pinning for jen,. i have lots of other characters but really the ones that i'm usually playing with is tortilos.

his name is chili tortilos, with long hair a striped shirt ( black and yellow, duh)
and his got a wife,. me, of course ,. whose name is cheese tortilos,. kamukha ko din namn ,. chinita,. jeans ang suot ano pa??
and the fruit of their love is their offspring, barbeque tortilos, a boy,. yup,. he's grown na,.

we've gone to several vacations already and i know he wants to be a teacher that's why i've given him the opportunity to have a wonderful career in education,.

hay,. i miss sims,. miss playing tortilos,.

its like an alternative world of your own to pull you back from reality,. because reality can't allow you to make things hapen well sims can make your dreams come true,. through hard work,. still, of course,.

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Monday, September 18, 2006

quite relunctant in posting what's used to be above,. because what's said is i'm hung over him,
and if you're my friend you wouldn't dare mention him again,. puhleez
oki doks
kasi kayo din namn ang nagbigay ng idea,.
diba?pasok pasok pasok sa qualifications fu(k u men!!!
nagyon ewan ko ba NAgago na!!!


"falling off the edge. hold me. "
kung tinatamad akong mag-aral eto ang gamot,. posted by cecil,. ang DL kong kaybigan sa http://lunarswings.blogspot.com/
hindi ko na alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. sobrang sabog ako at hindi ko alam kung bakit nawalan ako ng interes sa pagaaral. maraming mga tao ang tamad na tamad din at parang nahahawa na ako sa kanila. hindi na ako pumapasok--sagad sagad na ang mga absences ko na malapit nakong ma-FA sa mga subjects ko--at lagi pa akong late. hindi na rin ako nakikinig sa mga lectures unlike before na nabubuhay ako kahit hindi nag-aaral kasi focused ako sa discussions. ngayon, fleeting na ang utak ko at kung anu-ano ang iniisip ko kung hindi man ako blanko at natutulog ng nakadilat. ano ang problema ko? hindi sa wala na akong makitang dahilan para mag-aral tulad ng iba. in fact, napakarami kong dahilan para mag-aral. isa na don e gusto kong yumaman. eh pano naman ako yayaman kung Lit na nga ang course ko, bobo pa ako? hindi nga... bobo na talaga ako... totoo... no joke. hindi na talaga ako nag-aaral. at wala na akong naiintindihan sa mga ini-input sa utak ko. iniisip ko, kulang lang ako sa tulog. natutulog naman ako pero wala pa rin... isa pa, wala na akong dignidad. wala na nga yatang respeto sakin ang mga kaklase ko dahil nakikita nila akong lumalagapak. kaya kung utusan ako ni Jasmin, ganun nalang. feeling ko ang liit-liit ko na.at set alam mo ba, 7/15 ako sa narrative ko sa creative writing. tangena talaga yan ano... hindi naman ganun kasama ang loob ko kasi alam ko naman na crammed yon. ang nakakasama lang talaga eh yung wala nakong dignidad sa mga kaklase ko na nakabasa at nag-workshop ng epal kong ginawa. Nakaka-insulto talaga ang palakpakan na alam kong nandun lang para konsolasyon sa lahat. isa pa, alam ko namang hindi ako ganon magsulat. syet, maganda pa yung revised chapters ko ng 'Haruka's Choice' kesa dun eh. grabe ang crappy ko talaga.tapos eto, inuumaga na naman ako sa harap ng computer pero wala parin akong thesis. hindi ko alam kung bakit wala akong mahugot na konting interes man lang o kahit pag-aalala man lang na wala akong thesis. syet. nag-aalala na ako na hindi ako nag-aalala. lam mo yun? bad trip talaga. pero ang bilis ko mag-type ng blog na ito.siguro marami lang tumatakbo sa isip ko na either active o passive na nakapila para mailabas. kumbaga, pending sila at nasa dulo ng linya ang thesis ko. wahahaha!!excuses.daming issues ng bruha. di ko na alam. bitter bitter bitter!! [ang mag-comment ng 'bitter ampalaya' sasapakin ko]
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

hearing verve's bittersweet symphony replay all over again in my blank space head,.

sino nga ba ang loner???

didn't God the almighty create as an individual being???
then i guess we are all loners, then, hu? just asking.,,.
so when i'm looking for companionship like waiting for a text message from a supposed friend, wanting to know where he (or she or they, take your pick) is (are). i don't get nothing, my happy, mood suddenly makes a u turn to lonelinees, instant loner. it's just that kristine is the only one listening to ana. and when i'm walking my left foot is the only one who seems to care where my right foot is going. nobody there but me. my right hand to say hi to my left who is waving.

i guess the only thing that makes me lucid again is that when somebody smiles at me, or shows that they care like a simple text, or simple hi, those things that make you feel hey you're still living, not invisible and still is a part of this society.


thought occourred to me: my grandmother told my mother that you should marry a guy who loved you more. what if i found no such GUY.

Just the holy Trinity.. Of course it's already a fact that He loves me more. He sacrificed His life for us. should i be inclined to enter the nunnery and marry him???

Monday, September 11, 2006

mandidiri ang gagamit ng kumpyuter na ito,. bwahahaha,.,.

papano ba naman,.

Pwede ba lumayo ka sa kin???

papano ba naman kinakati ko ang aking ngipin,.

ngingingishngish,.

bwahahahaha
hehehehe


tamad pa kong gumawa ng dapat kong gawin na thesis eh

o sige na magsisipag sipagan na ang buding


kagaguhan:::http://www.rte.ie/arts/2006/0911/pittb.html

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

wow ang tagal na din di ako nakakapag kwento,.


just had fun this weekend--- friday to sunday, i was a bit emotional, but heck yeah,.

i enjoyed myself and suddenly found a place for me,.

i could stand alone,,.i have been standing alone,. (well of course with friends still by my side, but still i dont need no constant companion,. straight from your mouth that im the third wheel,. sa tricycle naman siguro ng buhay natin no??? at kaylangan talaga ako.,),./

yah,. beating the drums or should i say gong,. i just played and played. this for me was a dream come true,.

i was playing,. jamming,.,

i had to play my heart out never mind if my hands were getting sore,. this was just fot one night,. one night,.

one night that might never happen again.


i've always wanted to play drums,. unfortunately my mom seems to be turning me down,., and when people around me said that i have an ear for music and thought that i had the potential,.even gave me a demon chaser .

i told my mom about it ,. and she didn't even encourage me., oh well at least i got her to agree to enroll me to some drum lessons when will that be?

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